GENERAL RANDOM THOUGHTS
I am definetly not happy when I don't have something to set my mind to. I recently finished a few projects that were hanging over my head. I had planned to hire some KC symphony players to record them, but I just don't think I have time now before I leave, and I'd like to save that money for a few flights home - if the relationship works out. As of right now, I just have too much free time. I need school and a job, quick.
Speaking of jobs, I'm hoping I can find an easy one when I move. For the last 2 years I've had a great job at a mall where I basically got paid to sit there and do my homework (write music). I'm keeping my fingers crossed that there's going to be something like that on campus. I really can't get another church job, because I would *never* get to come home.
I went with my grandparents to a gospel music concert last night. I was kind of dreading it, but these singers were TALENTED. The show was hilarious, too. If you ever hear of these guys coming to town, take the family to see it, you won't be disappointed. The Dixie Echoes
After the concert, I went to a movie with some drunk friends, and they were being asses. Thank goodness we left halfway through the movie, because we probably would have gotten in a fight. After that we went to some shitty parties that made me really glad I'm doing something with my life. I'm not conceited, but I'm different from a lot of people my age. These guys don't have enough money to buy themselves a decent couch (or any other furniture), but you'd better believe they have a big TV, a playstation, booze and weed, and some ground effects on their cars. HOW FUCKING LAME. And by the way, they need to learn the fucking definition of a PARTY. A party is NOT 6-8 people getting together to smoke weed. I almost forgot why I stopped going to parties in my hometown, thanks for the reminder, white trash!
And by the way, why is it that the people who attack the evolution theory are usually the ones who look the most like a monkey? Just sayin'...
I found something that EE said the other day kinda hit home with me. She struggles with the fact that she is a planner. Yeah. Me too. Though I think I've done a good job in this relationship with K of laying back and letting things be, I can feel my anxiousness (it's a word!) starting to build again. I'm leaving in less than 2 weeks, and I think she and I are going to have to have a serious talk in about a week or so... cause this is killing me.
Oh, and by the by, I did take a photo of my backside for the next HNT. I didn't think it would be spectacular, but I actually think it turned out pretty well... now, whether to show the ass or not...
I am definetly not happy when I don't have something to set my mind to. I recently finished a few projects that were hanging over my head. I had planned to hire some KC symphony players to record them, but I just don't think I have time now before I leave, and I'd like to save that money for a few flights home - if the relationship works out. As of right now, I just have too much free time. I need school and a job, quick.
Speaking of jobs, I'm hoping I can find an easy one when I move. For the last 2 years I've had a great job at a mall where I basically got paid to sit there and do my homework (write music). I'm keeping my fingers crossed that there's going to be something like that on campus. I really can't get another church job, because I would *never* get to come home.
I went with my grandparents to a gospel music concert last night. I was kind of dreading it, but these singers were TALENTED. The show was hilarious, too. If you ever hear of these guys coming to town, take the family to see it, you won't be disappointed. The Dixie Echoes
After the concert, I went to a movie with some drunk friends, and they were being asses. Thank goodness we left halfway through the movie, because we probably would have gotten in a fight. After that we went to some shitty parties that made me really glad I'm doing something with my life. I'm not conceited, but I'm different from a lot of people my age. These guys don't have enough money to buy themselves a decent couch (or any other furniture), but you'd better believe they have a big TV, a playstation, booze and weed, and some ground effects on their cars. HOW FUCKING LAME. And by the way, they need to learn the fucking definition of a PARTY. A party is NOT 6-8 people getting together to smoke weed. I almost forgot why I stopped going to parties in my hometown, thanks for the reminder, white trash!
And by the way, why is it that the people who attack the evolution theory are usually the ones who look the most like a monkey? Just sayin'...
I found something that EE said the other day kinda hit home with me. She struggles with the fact that she is a planner. Yeah. Me too. Though I think I've done a good job in this relationship with K of laying back and letting things be, I can feel my anxiousness (it's a word!) starting to build again. I'm leaving in less than 2 weeks, and I think she and I are going to have to have a serious talk in about a week or so... cause this is killing me.
Oh, and by the by, I did take a photo of my backside for the next HNT. I didn't think it would be spectacular, but I actually think it turned out pretty well... now, whether to show the ass or not...
posted by Composer at 11:55 AM
4 Comments:
You know one part doesn't surprise me of what you wrote. Since I began reading you (lol, your BLOG) I have always thought that you came across very mature. One of my best friends is with a guy your age and he's giving her hell, basically acting like the guys at the party you talked about. And everytime she bitches about his age I think about how different YOU are from that stereo type.
Anyways, and HELLO, you know we both think alike regarding the planning. I had a life altering period of my life about 5 years ago and it was a HUGE reality check, reminding me that we just can NOT control all aspects of our lives...even as much as we *desire* to or how much we may try. And even though I'm still fairly controlling of my life and wish to PLAN fucking *everything* that happens in it....I am reminded in the back of my mind that you just can't control everything. Damn it.
Looking fwd to HNT!
Ah... the chicken soup for the worriers (it's a word ;-) soul.
I hear ya both! The best things in life are not "planned" as much as you wish you could.
Dear lord, do I understand!!!
I was told I was a spontanous planner...go firgure that one out!
Though it is sad that your friends at home have different life views than you do, think about why for moment. What didn't they get that you did? How come your perspective is so different? Are they really white trash or were they just never taught or exposed to something different or empowered to be something different? I dunno, i don't mean to be a bitch, but I just thought is was sucky that you trashed your friends just because you have different views/goals...
On a lighter note- i vote for show the ass please!
EE - thanks girl, I appreciate it.
Breeze - it IS a word!
Professor - I reread what I wrote to try to understand. I think I didn't make it clear, I wasn't talking about my friends, I was talking about the people hosting these crappy parties - I didn't know them. That said, it's true that it's not fair to judge others by standards you put out there for yourself, but trashy is trashy.
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