HMM...
First off, I want to apologize if I haven't been keeping up on commenting on everyone's blogs. I assure you that I've been reading them as normal.... just not commenting anywhere. I'll get back into it soon.
So yesterday.
We hung out during the afternoon, but she had to run back to her place. I went with her and that killed most of the day, since she lives so far out.
Dropped her off, went home, and started dinner. She was to be at my place by 8:30 at the latest. So, I get everything ready to throw on the stove (shrimp pasta, salad, spinach artichoke dip for an appetizer), and wait. And drink. And drink some more while I wait.
She didn't show up until 10:00. Now, this was fine - it really wasn't her fault, but I had definetly finished a bottle of wine and was a good way into bottle number two.
So, after a little drunken fiasco with the oregano, she ended up making dinner with me coaching her. Yeah, it was romantic.
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Let me preface this next section by saying that, believe it or not, foreplay CAN be intimidating to me. Some women are impossibly hard to read. K is one of those women. I'm going to be honest here about this, because I need to get it off my chest. I just can't seem to get things right for her, and holy shit, it is so fucking frustrating.
Every time I try to bring it up to talk about it (to get some advice or something), it always becomes a big deal. For example. We started to mess around this morning, and she got nowhere. I was very honest with her and said "this is new for me. Help me out here, tell me what you need," to which she replied something about I needed to follow her body language. That's fine sometimes... but I think this situation calls for a little more. We ended up getting in an argument about it. Super.
I ended up apologizing to her before she left, because I didn't want us to be angry at each other all day. As soon as I did, I felt like an idiot because I didn't need to apologize for anything.
I don't know if this is even making sense or not, I'm just a little peeved right now, and I need more sleep. I'll write more about this later, I'm going back to bed.
First off, I want to apologize if I haven't been keeping up on commenting on everyone's blogs. I assure you that I've been reading them as normal.... just not commenting anywhere. I'll get back into it soon.
So yesterday.
We hung out during the afternoon, but she had to run back to her place. I went with her and that killed most of the day, since she lives so far out.
Dropped her off, went home, and started dinner. She was to be at my place by 8:30 at the latest. So, I get everything ready to throw on the stove (shrimp pasta, salad, spinach artichoke dip for an appetizer), and wait. And drink. And drink some more while I wait.
She didn't show up until 10:00. Now, this was fine - it really wasn't her fault, but I had definetly finished a bottle of wine and was a good way into bottle number two.
So, after a little drunken fiasco with the oregano, she ended up making dinner with me coaching her. Yeah, it was romantic.
-----------
Let me preface this next section by saying that, believe it or not, foreplay CAN be intimidating to me. Some women are impossibly hard to read. K is one of those women. I'm going to be honest here about this, because I need to get it off my chest. I just can't seem to get things right for her, and holy shit, it is so fucking frustrating.
Every time I try to bring it up to talk about it (to get some advice or something), it always becomes a big deal. For example. We started to mess around this morning, and she got nowhere. I was very honest with her and said "this is new for me. Help me out here, tell me what you need," to which she replied something about I needed to follow her body language. That's fine sometimes... but I think this situation calls for a little more. We ended up getting in an argument about it. Super.
I ended up apologizing to her before she left, because I didn't want us to be angry at each other all day. As soon as I did, I felt like an idiot because I didn't need to apologize for anything.
I don't know if this is even making sense or not, I'm just a little peeved right now, and I need more sleep. I'll write more about this later, I'm going back to bed.
posted by Composer at 6:40 AM
4 Comments:
Oh man....(((you)))
I've thought about what to say here and the only thing I keep coming back to is that she has to help you out some....in means of showing you or telling you what is going to work....
I'm sorry about the evening/morning. *hugs*
I'm sorry about your night...
And I agree with ee- she so needs to help you out and 'show" you or tell you- that can be fun and it doesn't have to be "instructional" or embaressing...good luck.
Thanks ladies, the night wasn't all that bad, though.. she got drunk too and we had fun.
It very well could be that she's too embarrased to tell you what it is that she really wants. Some people just aren't vocal and have a hard time telling people. I used to be that way until I realized that it's to my benefit to explain what turns me on etc, some people are just too shy when it comes to that stuff even though they may not be in "real" life. Just my two cents...
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