DOWN TO THE WIRE
Quick post here (imagine speed lines coming off these words)
I'm heading over to K's place right now. I haven't been updating anyone on things as they've progressed (I've been busy, but have been talking with friends a bit about the situation). Basically, I feel that her communication issues don't just stop in the bedroom. She shows an unwillingness to make me a participant in *our* problems, and that is a problem. Things happened on Monday night, things happened on Tuesday morning... and I haven't seen her since. I've talked to her once on the phone.
Tonight, I intend to get something from her. Anything. I want to talk about what's happening between us. I want to talk about our argument on Tuesday. I want to talk about our relationship - and I'm not going to settle for less. I think tonight could go really well, or it could go really bad. I'm prepared for either.
It's sad, but trouble this week has made me look at her differently, and made me look at US differently. In my first relationship of a year and a half, I almost *never* glanced at other girls. Honestly. Wasn't interested.
Two years ago, with the second important girl, same thing.
It was like that with K all of last month. Only the third time in my life I stopped looking at other women. That has changed this week. I can feel my attention starting to wander again. Why? I know that I deserve someone who treats me better than this.
In any case, I am rambling (and with excessive speed) so I don't know if this makes sense or not, I'm going over there to get a handle on us, and I'm not leaving without it - for better or for worse.
Raise your hand if you think this is a little ridiculous for being a month in.
*pauses*
Yeah, me too.
Quick post here (imagine speed lines coming off these words)
I'm heading over to K's place right now. I haven't been updating anyone on things as they've progressed (I've been busy, but have been talking with friends a bit about the situation). Basically, I feel that her communication issues don't just stop in the bedroom. She shows an unwillingness to make me a participant in *our* problems, and that is a problem. Things happened on Monday night, things happened on Tuesday morning... and I haven't seen her since. I've talked to her once on the phone.
Tonight, I intend to get something from her. Anything. I want to talk about what's happening between us. I want to talk about our argument on Tuesday. I want to talk about our relationship - and I'm not going to settle for less. I think tonight could go really well, or it could go really bad. I'm prepared for either.
It's sad, but trouble this week has made me look at her differently, and made me look at US differently. In my first relationship of a year and a half, I almost *never* glanced at other girls. Honestly. Wasn't interested.
Two years ago, with the second important girl, same thing.
It was like that with K all of last month. Only the third time in my life I stopped looking at other women. That has changed this week. I can feel my attention starting to wander again. Why? I know that I deserve someone who treats me better than this.
In any case, I am rambling (and with excessive speed) so I don't know if this makes sense or not, I'm going over there to get a handle on us, and I'm not leaving without it - for better or for worse.
Raise your hand if you think this is a little ridiculous for being a month in.
*pauses*
Yeah, me too.
posted by Composer at 8:41 PM
3 Comments:
(((you)))
Such valid points you made. How did it go?
No I don't think it's ridiculous right now! I mean, good thing you're doing something about it now or you'll be in MY shoes!!! Granted the beginning w/ us was great and we screwed like bunnies... something's changed since then. When you know, you just know. Good luck and fill us in!
well said (And my hand it raised!)
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