SOMEBODY STOP ME
I find myself thinking a lot as I drive around here. It's tough, being home again, only a short drive from K.
Why do I want to call? It's not romantic feelings, those are dead. I guarantee. I think I'm just looking to earn back some respect somehow. Maybe I want her to see that I'm fine without her, and that I'm mature enough to be friends.
That all seems silly to me, I shouldn't be worried about what she thinks about... anything, but I can't shake the feeling that I want to call.
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All that leaves me wondering. What's the point? Why is it that we feel the need to be with someone? Why do I feel like I can't truly be happy until I find someone? I remember that line from Jerry McGuire, "You complete me."
"We should all be complete on our own," I think... why can't I believe it?
Food for thought. What is more mature - hope of finding someone - or - being happy with what you have? I don't think there's a right answer, but I'm sticking with hope.
I find myself thinking a lot as I drive around here. It's tough, being home again, only a short drive from K.
Why do I want to call? It's not romantic feelings, those are dead. I guarantee. I think I'm just looking to earn back some respect somehow. Maybe I want her to see that I'm fine without her, and that I'm mature enough to be friends.
That all seems silly to me, I shouldn't be worried about what she thinks about... anything, but I can't shake the feeling that I want to call.
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All that leaves me wondering. What's the point? Why is it that we feel the need to be with someone? Why do I feel like I can't truly be happy until I find someone? I remember that line from Jerry McGuire, "You complete me."
"We should all be complete on our own," I think... why can't I believe it?
Food for thought. What is more mature - hope of finding someone - or - being happy with what you have? I don't think there's a right answer, but I'm sticking with hope.
posted by Composer at 10:36 PM
3 Comments:
DON'T DO IT. DO NOT CALL OR SEE OR WHATEVER K.
Dearheart, I so almost said something in my last comment, when you mentioned how close you were to her. You just can't. Nothing would be gained of it, other than old feelings you have worked so hard to get over, being dug back up.
I have no fucking clue why we feel we 'need' to be with someone, another person to be happy. I think it's human nature. And I think some people are wired to be that way more so than others. I am definately one of them. *sigh*
And it's not that I don't think we...you...can't be complete on your own. It's that you and I know we can be *happier* and MORE complete, or complete in a different way with someone else.... I may be totally wrong. Just maybe talking out my ass here, lol.
And what is more mature??? I think both. All of the above. :)
*smooches*
I agree with ee- don't call.
As for why we need someone else- I think a lot of it is human nature. None of wants to be alone...I wish I had some great words of thoughts but it's a question I repeatedly wonder myself.
I understand why you want to call K. It's like you want to prove a point - although I bet you don't know what that point is. And really - what would you accomplish by calling her? What good could possibly come of it, do you want to be friends again??? Doubtful. So, don't waste your time honey.
I think everyone wants/needs companionship of some sort. Even in childhood, we sought friendship. In relationships, I think it's okay to be alone until you have been with someone else - then it gets alot harder.
The biggest mistake to make is to be with someone because of that companionship "we need".
You are such a rare find, honey. You really need to believe that!!!
Where were you in Philly btw... sorry I missed you!!! I'm sure our paths will cross at some point. It's not as a big of an area as it seems!!!
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