TAKIN' MY SWEET ASS TIME
So it's been a while. Again. I'm trying, it's just not happening.
Big news is: I went to coffee with K. Now let me start by saying thanks for your thoughts and opinions on the issue, and I probably would have said the same thing.
That said, it went fine. We met, hugged, caught up, talked about future plans, hugged, and left. About an hour and a half or so.
Believe it or not, I do want to be this girl's friend. I don't want to have let someone in to my life SO much and not even have a friendship to show for it. I don't want anyone to be so important to me and in a matter of days never speak to them again. It's not what I want. It's happened before with women I deeply cared about, and it's the part that makes me the most sad.
So, all in all, I think I'm doing the mature thing. I'm moving past her mistakes and my heartbreak to try to find a meaningful relationship. I have hope that it will only make continued recovery faster, and that I'm smart enough not to let feelings re-emerge.
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Blind date girl. Pisses me off. I'm quite sure I'm going to end this one soon.
Like I said, I'm checking out other girls a lot. Which is fine, we're not together, but I think we've been dating long enough that it might make her mad now.
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Good career stuff is on the horizon. I got a 500 dollar commission last week to write a short piece, that will hopefully result in some more (and more lucrative) work. I've also agreed to write a piece for a soprano soloist who is a fairly big name in the music business. Pro bono, but should be worth it. I've got a big performance and recording session coming up this week and next with a trio at the school. And, my church choir is recording a new piece I wrote for them.
It's not exactly career affirming stuff, but it's a step in the right direction, and that makes me as happy as anything.
Cheers!
So it's been a while. Again. I'm trying, it's just not happening.
Big news is: I went to coffee with K. Now let me start by saying thanks for your thoughts and opinions on the issue, and I probably would have said the same thing.
That said, it went fine. We met, hugged, caught up, talked about future plans, hugged, and left. About an hour and a half or so.
Believe it or not, I do want to be this girl's friend. I don't want to have let someone in to my life SO much and not even have a friendship to show for it. I don't want anyone to be so important to me and in a matter of days never speak to them again. It's not what I want. It's happened before with women I deeply cared about, and it's the part that makes me the most sad.
So, all in all, I think I'm doing the mature thing. I'm moving past her mistakes and my heartbreak to try to find a meaningful relationship. I have hope that it will only make continued recovery faster, and that I'm smart enough not to let feelings re-emerge.
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Blind date girl. Pisses me off. I'm quite sure I'm going to end this one soon.
Like I said, I'm checking out other girls a lot. Which is fine, we're not together, but I think we've been dating long enough that it might make her mad now.
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Good career stuff is on the horizon. I got a 500 dollar commission last week to write a short piece, that will hopefully result in some more (and more lucrative) work. I've also agreed to write a piece for a soprano soloist who is a fairly big name in the music business. Pro bono, but should be worth it. I've got a big performance and recording session coming up this week and next with a trio at the school. And, my church choir is recording a new piece I wrote for them.
It's not exactly career affirming stuff, but it's a step in the right direction, and that makes me as happy as anything.
Cheers!
posted by Composer at 6:32 PM
5 Comments:
See my love?! You constantly astound me with the level of maturity you are able to display. I know how hard you fell for K and how much she effected you...so the fact that you could meet up with her and handle yourself as awesomely as you did. *sigh* You rock. :)
Congrats on the career stuff and good luck on the performance and recording.
Good to see you around. :)
Thanks so much EE, I think I surprised myself a little. Ha!
Well, I don't know your story with K but I will read your entire blog to see if I learn something from it.
All i can say is that...ufff, you're good guy!{there are not more good guys around, anymore} But you know what, maybe i won't do the same {as being friend with my ex} but I would have appreacited the fact that we left things okay, without any hard feelings.
Good luck with everything you're planning and want!
:)
WOW! Honey, congrats on the career stuff. That's pretty important.
LOL!!! About K. It's nice to see that you "see" well, the deal. It's so *effing* cool. It's also awesome to see that you got out of that ordeal with your class...so important.
Wise beyond your years honey.
BTW... don't feel bad about not blogging...as you can see, I'm just fine with it! HA! ;-)
Looking to start a new place soon, free from unwarranted criticism :-)
Suri - thanks for stopping by, much appreciated... and thanks for your nice words.
Breeze - Wow, how sweet of you! Please do look into starting a new blog. We'd love to see you back without people fucking it up for the rest of us. Do you have my e-mail address? E-mail me if you get a new blog going.
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