INACTIVITY
In posting, that is. I'm sorry I haven't been keeping it up, the last few weeks have been tough. I haven't been sleeping well at all. Part of that is anger, part is lonliness. While totally over K, as far as not wanting her back, my anger is still lingering. Despite the fact that I haven't told you everything, trust me when I say that there was some major shit that she got away with.
I'm relearning how to deal with this 'lose-lose' sort of situation, and, as I keep telling myself - it's just going to take time. For someone who wants everything to be right in the world and all lose ends tied up, it's very hard to feel so defeated with a growing sense that I need closure. THAT is what's keeping me up at night right now.. and the lack of sleep then wreaks havoc on everything else.
School is generally well. A few classes suck because they're 90% busy work - the 'I could finish this class in a week if you'd just give me all the info in a packet instead of making me take notes for an entire semester' sort of class. Choir sucks because I wasn't good enough at audition to get into the good group, and I'm stuck in the lousy choir. Other than that, my lessons are great, conducting class is great, and the seminars are great.
It's great to be around people. I'm working more now at the dating game, and might have some opportunities.... which is great, because somebody accidentally turned my horny switch to high and left it there. Seriously, I wonder what my deal is sometimes. It's a good thing I have SOME morals, because if given the opportunity, I COULD have sex ALL the freakin' time.
I think some lovin' would help get my mind off K though... I'm workin' on it.
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QUESTION
This is modeled after EE's Controversial Question Wednesday... though this isn't so controversial. I'm just really curious where you ladies stand on this.
How manly do you want your man to be? And how far away from that are you willing to go for someone you like?
This interests me because I've seen female friends up here date guys that were ...considerably less manly than normal. Almost effiminate. It's strange to me that these women would want a man who knows more about matching wardrobes than fixing cars. Isn't that part of what women like about men, that they're different? I really don't know, I'm just asking.
So, on a scale from 1 to 10, 1 being
"hells yes I'll go shopping with you! And girlfriend those shoes are CUUTE!" and 10 being
"I just fixed the toilet, the stove, and made a table out of that old oak tree. Now I'm going to go hunting, and when I get back I want dinner made, and some rough sex... and no cuddling afterwards."
where do you want your guy to be? Do you want a guy who is hornier or less horny (chuckle) than you? Do you want a muscular or scrawny guy?
Just curious, fill me in!
In posting, that is. I'm sorry I haven't been keeping it up, the last few weeks have been tough. I haven't been sleeping well at all. Part of that is anger, part is lonliness. While totally over K, as far as not wanting her back, my anger is still lingering. Despite the fact that I haven't told you everything, trust me when I say that there was some major shit that she got away with.
I'm relearning how to deal with this 'lose-lose' sort of situation, and, as I keep telling myself - it's just going to take time. For someone who wants everything to be right in the world and all lose ends tied up, it's very hard to feel so defeated with a growing sense that I need closure. THAT is what's keeping me up at night right now.. and the lack of sleep then wreaks havoc on everything else.
School is generally well. A few classes suck because they're 90% busy work - the 'I could finish this class in a week if you'd just give me all the info in a packet instead of making me take notes for an entire semester' sort of class. Choir sucks because I wasn't good enough at audition to get into the good group, and I'm stuck in the lousy choir. Other than that, my lessons are great, conducting class is great, and the seminars are great.
It's great to be around people. I'm working more now at the dating game, and might have some opportunities.... which is great, because somebody accidentally turned my horny switch to high and left it there. Seriously, I wonder what my deal is sometimes. It's a good thing I have SOME morals, because if given the opportunity, I COULD have sex ALL the freakin' time.
I think some lovin' would help get my mind off K though... I'm workin' on it.
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QUESTION
This is modeled after EE's Controversial Question Wednesday... though this isn't so controversial. I'm just really curious where you ladies stand on this.
How manly do you want your man to be? And how far away from that are you willing to go for someone you like?
This interests me because I've seen female friends up here date guys that were ...considerably less manly than normal. Almost effiminate. It's strange to me that these women would want a man who knows more about matching wardrobes than fixing cars. Isn't that part of what women like about men, that they're different? I really don't know, I'm just asking.
So, on a scale from 1 to 10, 1 being
"hells yes I'll go shopping with you! And girlfriend those shoes are CUUTE!" and 10 being
"I just fixed the toilet, the stove, and made a table out of that old oak tree. Now I'm going to go hunting, and when I get back I want dinner made, and some rough sex... and no cuddling afterwards."
where do you want your guy to be? Do you want a guy who is hornier or less horny (chuckle) than you? Do you want a muscular or scrawny guy?
Just curious, fill me in!
posted by Composer at 11:11 AM
4 Comments:
Oh the fun I could have w/ this one! I will have fun w/ it but you'll have to wait as I really dont' have time to write about it right now. I'll do it tomorrow though! :)
Sarah! I can't get to your blog for some reason... can you give me a link to your actual blog page (not just your profile...)?
Okay- my typical guy is usually very "manly" looking- big, burly, dark. i don't necessarily want him to know when I put my Jimmy Choo's on (but I want him to appreciate nice things/clothes/ travel/ good books/ great wine/ etc...) and I live in the manliest place in the world right now so...maybe somewhere between hanging a deer in our yard and loving my Milanos??? Shit- great question!
But sometime a guy can surprise you with either being super manly, regardless of looks, or being too girlie- regardless of looks. I 'dated' a guy who looked like a literature professor but was a fireman, liked rough sex but cuddled afterward- talk about a dichotamy... so- hell, who knows? I want my men to be MEN!
Hmmm.....I guess I have to go with a 6??? I've gone the 10 route and I'm revamping my criteria bc that didn't seem to work out for me so well.
I'm needing a man who can show some sensitivity, enjoy doing things *I* like to do w/o bitching about it and whoa....here's me going out on limb, I LOVE AFFECTION. Show me some love baby! ;)
Oh and muscles...all about the muscles and a dude who cares about his appearance...takes care of his body, himself and dresses so that he looks nice.
As far as the horny thing....hell yeah! It does me no good to be hornier than hell 24/7 and have my man not be into it when I am. Talk about a buzz kill!
:)
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