IT'S BEEN A FINE WEEK

Except for the continued sleeping troubles, things are going pretty well. I'm (fucking finally) starting to make plans with girls, and I can't tell you how glad I am for that.

Now, trust me, I KNOW that things probably aren't going to go anywhere with some of them, but I NEED to get out there and get back on that horse. Going out with my group of friends is really nice, but I need a date or two for a change, and some action would be SUPER.

So, not like the prospects have been really great. I'm going on a blind-datish sort of thing tomorrow. I'm told she's super-hot. OK. I don't really care what these girls look like (to a point), I just want to get back into the scene. So, it should be interesting at least.

The other girl, I know for a fact is super hot. She lives in my apartment building (Composer, that doesn't sound like a good idea...), and on my floor (RED ALERT! RED ALERT!), but we already made plans to do something Saturday. She's a professional in mall management, and I'm quite sure a few years older than me. That said, she didn't strike me as terribly interesting, but I'm not planning on making any judgements until we hang out.

Others are more "in development" I suppose, but I remain optomistic at this point about the way things are going. I'm getting better every day at starting conversations with new people, and not feeling (or being) creepy about it.

Besides that business? I've been writing more, sleeping more (with the aid of naps... I need to get that worked out), lifting more, running more, eating better, and enjoying life more.

One of my best friends (and former GF) is coming to town at the end of the month. I haven't been this excited about anything, and I mean ANYTHING sense K. She and I broke up last year because I recognized that she wasn't in a good place to have a relationship, and that she had some growing up to do. It was a horribly sad breakup, because we always had fun together.

Well, I'm not holding out hope (especially for anything long distance), but she really has done some growing up, I can see it. She's become less reliant on her friends, she's partying less, working more, living on her own, and not needing to date anyone (who just said she's more mature than me? I'll kick your ass!). She and I have always had a connection, an instant friendship, and I'm just glad she's coming. I really love her as a friend, and you never know, there might be something more there eventually.

So, things are going fine, and though I can't say I yet feel OK about K, I'm working on a way to take some of this weight off my shoulders. I'm drafting a letter to send to her. Yeah, yeah, I know, bad idea, right? Well, I've done this before, and I always, ALWAYS feel better once I clear my mind and channel it into a piece of paper.

I won't be hurtful. Just short, and to the point. I'm planning on saying what I need to say to get closure from my end. I don't care if she responds. She probably won't. If she does, it probably won't be very nice. I just don't care, I need to say these things.