MY DREAM
I spent all day today cleaning my place and running errands. Though it's often a little too much time to think, I enjoyed it today... I think I needed a brain break.
It's getting brisk out and I can't begin to tell you how much I love the weather. I don't know how exactly I made the connection in my brain, but for some reason the cold just makes me feel more like a kid. I step outside, take one breath of the crisp autumn air in, and I feel ...more human. It's hard to describe.
So... something about this weather seems to remind me of one of my dreams. I want a family. I do. I found myself daydreaming a lot today about it. I had pictures flash into my mind of a home outside of the suburbs, kids, pets. I know from far too many sources that having a family is never easy... but I want it.
Living in the city is great... for a change - but I don't want to stay here forever. Not in any city. I want someone who appreciates that about me and is on the same page. The whole music scene, the world class institutions, the first rate symphonies, all that... will lose it's appeal to me one day. I want to be able to live my life out with my family, first.
Maybe that means I'll never be truly successful in my field. That's possible, it was certainly K's perspective, but I don't care. I don't think I could ever give up on love for my career, and I think anyone that can is bitter and will one day regret their choices.
So, that's it. Despite the difficulty, the blows it will take at my career, I want a family. I want to teach my son how to throw a baseball, I want to teach my daughter how to properly kick a boy in the junk, I want to be a dad and a husband.
I probably should have put a disclaimer at the beginning of this post: "extreme corniness ahead"
I spent all day today cleaning my place and running errands. Though it's often a little too much time to think, I enjoyed it today... I think I needed a brain break.
It's getting brisk out and I can't begin to tell you how much I love the weather. I don't know how exactly I made the connection in my brain, but for some reason the cold just makes me feel more like a kid. I step outside, take one breath of the crisp autumn air in, and I feel ...more human. It's hard to describe.
So... something about this weather seems to remind me of one of my dreams. I want a family. I do. I found myself daydreaming a lot today about it. I had pictures flash into my mind of a home outside of the suburbs, kids, pets. I know from far too many sources that having a family is never easy... but I want it.
Living in the city is great... for a change - but I don't want to stay here forever. Not in any city. I want someone who appreciates that about me and is on the same page. The whole music scene, the world class institutions, the first rate symphonies, all that... will lose it's appeal to me one day. I want to be able to live my life out with my family, first.
Maybe that means I'll never be truly successful in my field. That's possible, it was certainly K's perspective, but I don't care. I don't think I could ever give up on love for my career, and I think anyone that can is bitter and will one day regret their choices.
So, that's it. Despite the difficulty, the blows it will take at my career, I want a family. I want to teach my son how to throw a baseball, I want to teach my daughter how to properly kick a boy in the junk, I want to be a dad and a husband.
I probably should have put a disclaimer at the beginning of this post: "extreme corniness ahead"
posted by Composer at 4:17 PM
1 Comments:
Awwww, how *cute* you are! You have wonderful dreams and such a sound and solid mind frame. I'm sure you will attain your hearts desire one day soon. AND I am most certain you will be able to find that 'right' girl who will be able to help you fullfill them.
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