AH, JEALOUSY, MY OLD FRIEND...

Actually, that's not really true, I'm not used to being jealous. In the past, if I've felt jealous it was for a good reason - that I couldn't trust the person. So I would break up with them. Done and done.

This time around is different. I'm really into Peagant Girl, and I believe she's really into me. This relationship definetly has long term potential. That's why it sucks that I keep getting jealous.

Let's take for example the gentleman who e-mails her out of the blue to ask if this "relationship is serious", because he's had a crush on her for a long time.

Or the guy who pretends to be my friend to my face, and then tries to make out with her at a party while I'm in the OTHER ROOM.

Oh, oh, this one is the best. She's out in small town colorado this Summer for a music festival. She finally finds one guy she feels comfortable hanging out with that isn't going to hit on her. He has a GIRLFRIEND of a YEAR AND A HALF. They get drunk at a party and he starts hitting on her hardcore. Once she walks home alone, he starts calling her between 2 and 3 AM asking if he can come over. I wonder why.

Seriously. Where in the FUCK do these guys get off doing stuff like this? I would *never* hit on a girl who has a boyfriend. Casual flirting? Maybe - that depends on the girl. Asking if their relationship is serious because I have a crush on them? No. Trying to make out with them? No. Gaining their trust and then trying to SLEEP with them? Come on guys. Do you even care that you're dirtbags?

(oh, and P.S. you better believe I'm confronting this jackass when I get out there to visit her in a month. I'm already tired of him.)

So, long story short, after years of swearing I'd never be the jealous type, I seem to have become just that. Though, for the record, I think I'm handling this decently compared to how some guys might.

In the end, I am glad that she tells me these things. If I found out about them later from someone else, I would be far more upset, I think. It's got it's downsides, but in the end, I'm glad I'm with someone who is completely honest with me.

Venting complete. Thanks for playing along.

I'M HAPPY

So I know I haven't said much about it, but Pageant Girl is great. Fantastic, really.

She's just graduated with an undergraduate degree from my school and is coming back for a masters degree. With her starting a two-year degree and myself going for the double masters, we're both going to be in Baltimore for two years. That gives us plenty of time (which, at this age - and in this profession, can be hard to come by) to see how this relationship pans out.

I'm excited. I think there is potential here for a future, and it's been a long time since I've felt that way. I'll try to contain my giddy-ness....

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I'm heading back to Baltimore tomorrow, it may be a few days until I post again (what's new?). I'll be back soon!

HN...WHATEVER

As you all know full well by now, I just do the HNT whenever I feel like... keeps you guessing!

I thought this picture just looked weird with my face cut out... I'll take this down in a day or two though! Hope you enjoy :)

8 FACTS MEME

Alright, alright. Sitdown and shutup bitches, I've been tagged by VIXEN for this MEME, and I do NOT back down from a MEME challenge. So join me on this journey of discovery. You'll laugh, you'll cry... you might even get horny, who the hell knows. ENJOY!

8 Random Facts MEME
# I have to post these rules before I give you the facts.
# Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
# People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
# At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
# Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

#1 - I have a blackbelt! That's right, I actually would have two, but the other martial art I took didn't have belts. Since I've been home I've been sparring a lot, and I'm actually considering fighting in a cage fight.

#2 - I have a GIRLFRIEND! Haha, I'm SURE you didn't know that about my commit-a-phobic ass. Pageant Girl came to visit and we decided to make it official. I have to admit I was really worried about it, but since we made the choice I've felt really good about it.

#3 - I can enjoy sex up to 4 times a day. That's not to say I can't do it more times, but after 4 times things start to get a little raw down there and it becomes a little more like work.

#4 - I can't wake up early to save my life. I will forever wake up with 15 minutes to get ready just to get those few precious moments of sleep.

#5 - I LOVE hard fucking. I'm sure that's not unlike most guys, but I really do like it rough. Biting, spanking, scratching, hair-pulling, maybe even a little slapping around (as long as it goes both ways), it's all good with me.

#6 - I love kids, but I can't stand teaching them. I would never teach younger than highschool.

#7 - I eat CONSTANTLY, but it's only healthy food... I figure that offsets it, right?

#8 - My new favorite place to have sex is the backseat of my car... here's why. One of my favorite positions is standard missionary, except with the girls legs up over my shoulders - perfect for the car. Then, once in that position, the car is the perfect shape. There's a place to put my foot and a handle to grab with 0ne hand, allowing for the hardest of sex.

Alright, I'm about to blow my load from talking about all that sex... time to take a porn break. Later!

P.S. - I don't have eight blog friends (sigh...) so do this thing if you wanna!

I'M GUESSING PUNK

I'm not sure though. I'll bet I've got a lot of points for a few of these, my tastes are varied.

PREP
[] You go tanning.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[] You own something from Abercrombie.
[] You own something from Pacsun.
[] You own something from Hollister.
[] You own something from American Eagle.
[] You love/like going to the mall.
[x]You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[] You love Starbucks.
[] You have been called a brat.
[] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[] You have more than one house.

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colours
[] You have thought about death.
[] You wear chains.
[] You like heavy metal.
[] You’ve shopped at Hot Topic.
[] You have worn black lipstick
[] Your hair was/is dark.
[] You dislike preps.
[] You’re an athiest/ satanist/agnostic/Pagan

PUNK
[] You can skateboard.
[] You wear plaid.
[x] You like Converse.
[x] You hate MTV
[] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
[x] You dislike pink.
[] You hate/dislike preps.
[x] You wear/wore skateboarding shoes.

GEEK
[x] You love the computer.
[] You like Harry Potter
[] You are supposed to wear glasses/contacts.
[x] You get/got straight A’s.
[] You love/like reading.
[x] You were/are in band.
[] You don’t care what you look like.
[] You have a curfew.
[] You always do/did your homework.
[] You never miss school unless you’re sick.

EMO
[] You are/were depressed.
[] You have black rimmed glasses.
[x] You like the band Taking Back Sunday.
[] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music.
[] You hate being called emo.
[] You keep a journal/diary.
[] You have written a sad poem.
[] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
[x] You think emo chicks/Guys are hot
[] you wear your hood alot

GHETTO/GANSTA
[x] You like rap.
[] You are in a gang.
[] You wear/wore rubberbands in your pants.
[x] You swear once in a while or alot.
[] You have freestyled.
[] You have worn high tops with the tongue flipped out.
[] You can break dance

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music
[] You love/loved the Ninja Turtles
[] You never walk anywhere.
[] You wear slip-on shoes.
[] You love Norma Jean.
[] You wear band t-shirts.
[] People have called you a freak and meant it.
[] You love to “hardcore” dance
[] Your hair has been dyed more than one color at a time.

ATHLETIC
[x] You watch/watched the Superbowl.
[x] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[] You collect your jerseys.
[x] You have/had had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[] You have posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[x] Your garage consists of sports equipment
[x] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[] You are going/did go to a sports summer camp.
[] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.

PREP 2
GOTHIC 1
PUNK 4
GEEK 3
EMO 3
GHETTO/GANSTA 2
HARDCORE 1
ATHLETIC 5

Should have known the athletic side wins. That's alright, lifting weights got me more sex than music ever did.

MY OWN VERSION OF TMI

So this might be too much for some of you, but it's an honest question I have for the ladies out there, and there's a very good reason I'm asking.

Do you ever have sex while you're on your period?

Here's why I ask. Pageant Girl is coming to town next week. Chances are she's going to be on her period most, if not the entire time she's here. After this trip, I'm not going to see her for almost 3 months... and that's a long time to go without sex.

So... what do you think? Should I try? I'm up for it (in case you didn't know, I'm a dirty man). If you've done it before, what should I expect? Is there something we can do to make it work? Should I just try to convince her to do anal? (I think I can, by the way)

Again, I'm sorry if this is gross! But hey, composer needs his sex.

I FIGURED I OWE YOU





Now that that's out of the way...

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So, I'm back in Kansas City now, home for a few more weeks before I head back to Baltimore for Summer classes. Things are generally good, I'm just trying to get a lot of work done and get back in shape after my allergy (or whatever that was) issues in Baltimore.

Things with Pageant Girl are getting a bit more serious. She's home for a month or so, staying with her parents. I drove 8 hours to see her last week and stayed with her at her parents house for a few days.

Let me tell you, in those 3 days, I had, easily, the best sex of my life. It was hot, sweaty, dirty, hard fucking... and it was well worth the drive.

So now she's flying here in a week to stay with me for a few days before we go our seperate ways for the rest of the summer. I'd say there's definetly potential here for a relationship, but like I probably said before, I've got some time to figure things out before we're back in Baltimore.

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I wish I could say other things are new... I'm finishing work on a huge piece that's going to be an important composition for me, and that's keeping me busy.

Oh yeah! I did find out I'm going to be an uncle! My (only) sister just told me yesterday, so that is big news!

Well, hopefully I can keep this up more regularly, I miss you all! Peace!